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Jul 16 2009

And now I’ll just go cry myself to sleep

Two years ago I wrote a few words on Everything you wanted to know about low thyroid but didn’t know to ask. I reread it this morning, slumped over my computer, eyes at half-mast. I have felt like crap for roughly the last month (Tom says longer), and have been waiting for the results of last week’s blood draw to see if my thyroid levels are off.

The doctor’s office finally called a few minutes ago. My numbers are normal.

Really? The poor woman on the phone got an earful, including my current symptoms, and will call back. Probably next week, when I won’t be here.

I am so tired I am tired of myself. I slept for 9 hours last night (NINE!) and still had to physically drag myself out of bed this morning. I start to drive, and I want to face-plant onto the steering wheel. My patience is at record lows, my body feels like lead, and I’m at the highest weight I’ve ever been without a being inside me.

I hate myself like this. Hate.

There is so much I want to do with my life, I need energy to do it all, and fighting against my own body isn’t helping. I don’t know what’s wrong, am sick of searching, and am too tired to figure it out.

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  1. Robin from Israel

    Oh honey I’m sorry. I know how much it would have helped to have this be the answer.

    (((much love, hugs, and wine winging their virtual way to you)))

  2. RC

    So sorry you don’t have an answer yet. Depression is a thought here…

  3. Kristi

    Please do not take this the wrong way. I am NOT a doctor. However, someone close to me had these same symptoms and was diagnosed with sleep apnea. Here are some of the symptoms of sleep apnea in adults:

    — Periods of not breathing (10 to 20 seconds at a stretch) throughout the night
    — Loud interrupted snoring
    — Waking up with an exhausted feeling
    — Unexplained headache upon waking up
    — Feeling sleepy throughout the day
    — Lethargic feeling throughout the day
    — Irritability
    — Below average mental functioning
    — Poor judgment
    — Forgetfulness
    — High blood pressure

    Hope you feel better soon!!

  4. cms8741

    Have you been tested for Hashimoto’s? My SIL and MIL have thyroid issues that don’t get picked up on regular panels. There is a specialized blood draw to do. I’ll e-mail you.

  5. Jen

    I don’t have medical advice at all, just ((((((hugs))))))). I’m sorry you feel so yucky and tired all the time, and really hope you can find the solution to the problem very soon.

  6. melzent

    I have hugs, too. I’d make you cookies, but you can’t have gluten. 🙁 So hug will have to do.

  7. Andrea

    Oh Jen! I’m so sorry! This is just crappy that you’re feeling this way – it’s not fair. Remember when you had to be the mama bear for A? It’s time to be that for you! Demand that they do more – don’t just accept this. There’s a reason why this is going on, and there’s something that can be done to make it better. Be like that little kitten hanging onto the rope – hang in there!

  8. cursingmama

    I’m going to call my clinic today & get a blood draw because I’m out of control. I do wonder – although your numbers are “normal” possibly they aren’t where they need to be for you. Dr. Christine Northrup has some great insight into thyroid disease & how the numbers aren’t (and shouldn’t be) one size fits all.

  9. kristine

    yea my pcp said the same thing.”your blood levels are within the normal range.”
    4 years of feelin awful,puttin on weight, craced heels, heart palpiatations that landed me in the hosptial twice .

    Went to an endocrinologist who ,like me , felt it was better to have the TSH closer to 1.0.upped my dose and i am a new woman. My daughter,same PCP, has Hashimoto’s and they never tested her anemia ..came in at a 6 ..the endo put both of us on high vit D, the kid is on iron and I am on pre-natal vitamins even though I am in my 50’s.

  10. Mrs4444

    I was thinking the apnea or depression stuff-mostly the apnea, though. Sorry you’re going through this!

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